#1) a failed night weaning experiement: the person who i first heard the term night weaning from confessed to me that she had given up on it and that it was unsuccessful.
#2) more drama: the manny again said "i'll take care of him" last night only ot wake him up and make him highly agitated until i put him down by the breast. i was heartbroken. he had just gotten back from three peaceful days away from home and i thought he would be committed for once.
#3) an outsider's perspecive: my friend jana said she had never seen the boy so clingy and upset during the day or night and that something was really the matter with him because he was acting frightened and troubled.
#4) facing up: i am having to face up to the reality that i am on my own in helping the boy to be settled and calm and off the boob at night. i am coming to understand that "i've got it" when spoken in the middle of the night is a bold-faced lie. i don't want that to be the case. i don't want to keep doing something that doesn't work. i have to help my son.
#5) making changes: all of royce's stuff is in the guest room as of this morning. i (not my husband) will be transitioning him into his own room for the sake of his and my survival. nights are going to be hard around here, but easier than our mangled attempt at night weaning.